WHY WE NEED TO STAND UP TO CANCER

Fear is an awful thing when confronted by the knowledge of knowing that your life could be cut from years to a few months. This becomes so real when you go to the Drs for an appointment to hear the news from your cat scan, and then you hear those dreaded words. " I am sorry to say the cat can results reveal there is a mass and its cancer" Every thing at that moment in time stands still and you look at the Drs mouth and the words are like a massive sound in your head, but you some how cant take it in what they said, but then you start to cry, and then for some reason your mind asks a question, but you cant get it out to relay it to the Dr... "Am I going to die? " Your world in that moment that seems so perfect before that appointment, seems that it has all caved in. Then you are handed a tissue and a another one at it seems like you have used a whole box in a couple of moments. then again you hear sound coming out of your Drs voice. like... need to start chemo... side effects... blood work... appointments etc etc ... but at that moment it all comes out as gobble gook. Then the appointment time is up and you try to stand up but your legs are wobbly, but how come as when you came in they where fine, some how your brain and rest of your body are not in sinc... How come ?? This is not the way I want to feel... So I make it to the desk and make my appointment for the chemo and half smile and make way to the exit and walk into what seems like a glorious day of sunshine, but how come I feel that I have just being hit by a thunderstorm?? TO BE CONTINUED...